Light and dark

This concept is following me around for the last few days.

I have had some thoughts that I have started putting onto paper, then I hear a sermon, then I read a devotional. All in the span of 48hrs and its all about the same concept.

Intrigue

Anyone else think God's got a word for me?

Ha! I love my God. He walks with me in the light and the dark.  There was a line I read that brought tears to my eyes, "I would rather walk with God in darkness than alone in the light."

Do I really believe that? Am I ok with experiencing that? Honestly? No. My initial answer is no, why cant I have God in the light?

Yes, it sounds like utopia but really its more that I am ashamed to have God with me in my dark times. I say and do things in my dark times that I really dont want God to see or know about.

People always say when times are bad, people run to God and when times are good, they forget Him. NOT ME!

I am the total opposite.  I know that no good thing comes to me except through God Almighty. However, when bad things happen, I stray far. I feel rejected and forgotten and so I keep walking away.

Then the last 48hrs happened. Rejected once again by the world, accepted once again by The Holy Spirit. In my sin, He sent me a Word through a pastor on the other side of the country.

So, I come back to my life motto.

LOVE GOD AND THE REST WILL FOLLOW.