March 31, 2015

Vision and Darkness

Whenever God gives a vision to a Christian, it is as if He puts him in “the shadow of His hand” (Isaiah 49:2). The saint’s duty is to be still and listen. There is a “darkness” that comes from too much light—that is the time to listen. The story of Abram and Hagar in Genesis 16 is an excellent example of listening to so-called good advice during a time of darkness, rather than waiting for God to send the light. When God gives you a vision and darkness follows, wait. God will bring the vision He has given you to reality in your life if you will wait on His timing. Never try to help God fulfill His word. Abram went through thirteen years of silence, but in those years all of his self-sufficiency was destroyed. He grew past the point of relying on his own common sense. Those years of silence were a time of discipline, not a period of God’s displeasure. There is never any need to pretend that your life is filled with joy and confidence; just wait upon God and be grounded in Him (see Isaiah 50:10–11).

Do I trust at all in the flesh? Or have I learned to go beyond all confidence in myself and other people of God? Do I trust in books and prayers or other joys in my life? Or have I placed my confidence in God Himself, not in His blessings? “I am Almighty God . . .” —El-Shaddai, the AllPowerful God (Genesis 17:1). The reason we are all being disciplined is that we will know God is real. As soon as God becomes real to us, people pale by comparison, becoming shadows of reality. Nothing that other saints do or say can ever upset the one who is built on God.

- My Utmost for His Highest devotional from the YouVersion Bible app

March 30, 2015

Light and dark

This concept is following me around for the last few days.

I have had some thoughts that I have started putting onto paper, then I hear a sermon, then I read a devotional. All in the span of 48hrs and its all about the same concept.

Intrigue

Anyone else think God's got a word for me?

Ha! I love my God. He walks with me in the light and the dark.  There was a line I read that brought tears to my eyes, "I would rather walk with God in darkness than alone in the light."

Do I really believe that? Am I ok with experiencing that? Honestly? No. My initial answer is no, why cant I have God in the light?

Yes, it sounds like utopia but really its more that I am ashamed to have God with me in my dark times. I say and do things in my dark times that I really dont want God to see or know about.

People always say when times are bad, people run to God and when times are good, they forget Him. NOT ME!

I am the total opposite.  I know that no good thing comes to me except through God Almighty. However, when bad things happen, I stray far. I feel rejected and forgotten and so I keep walking away.

Then the last 48hrs happened. Rejected once again by the world, accepted once again by The Holy Spirit. In my sin, He sent me a Word through a pastor on the other side of the country.

So, I come back to my life motto.

LOVE GOD AND THE REST WILL FOLLOW.