Lies are from...

Where did the urge come from?

If you are Christian,  it came from the serpent coaxing Eve to eat the fruit.

If you are human, it seems to always be the easy way out.

If you are Indian,  its how you save your pride which mostly comes from, the fear that you arent good enough.

For me? I cant wrap my head around this need to hide things or lie.  I lived a lie for a long time, a lie that I was a good Christian...

I believed the whole time. Well even that is a lie. I doubted the existence of this Supreme Creator God.

I pretended to br interested but guess what, He called me to him.  MULTIPLE times.   My first encounter,  in 11th grade.  My second,  in college. And they few and far between and I thought that was normal and the way things worked with God.

In the last 6-7 yrs, I have come to learn its more like a moment to moment thing.  God speaks, we just have to be in tune to hear at all times.  He is working constantly, He wants us to know that, be aware of the reality of that.

Some of us live life as if no one is watching.  As long as we project on the outside what we want the world to see then we dont have to deal with the reality of what's happening on the inside. 

That's a lie!

God will bring it to the light.  He brought my fear of being alone out for me to deal with in front of the world.  He brought my urge to tell white lies out in the open.  He brought my fears out.  He brought my inability to trust to test last October.  Why? So that I am aware that He knows and also because He cares that I am overcoming these and not getting bogged down by them.

My Father in Heaven, break your children Lord! Break every chain that ties us down.

Love God and the rest will follow...