Did I miss it?

My dad said something to me a while back and it kinda stuck with me in relation to the rat race that is my life in the city.

"How long will you be chasing trains?"

I often think to myself, 'did I miss the train?' did I miss my calling in life? Did I miss my beloved? Did I miss the opportunity to work in the perfect job? Then I recall something that one of the wives of an elder at my church told me. "God only gives you what's good for you in this moment in time"

So I hold on to that hope and anchor my soul in the fact/promise that if it was good for me I would have it right now!

I didn't miss my calling, this is my calling right now.

I didn't miss my beloved, Jesus is my only beloved at the moment.

I didn't miss my the opportunity to work on my perfect job, the job in have right now is perfect for me in this moment.

God and I are in the perfect place for a time such as this.

Would i change  my circumstances? I certainly would tweak a few things here and there but then again I don't know the wholelive ry yet so I am living in the moment here.

I have moments of elation when the boy that I think I love smiles at me or better speaks to me! Or when my VP randomly messages me and says "good job!"  While I personally would dial those moments up and tune down the moments of loneliness or months where i feel like in any get my head up above water at work, I will live in this moment now.

Love God and the rest will follow...