Be careful...

I am sitting in a cafe staring into the city I have loved since I was 13.

Daughtry's 'home' is playing.

Then it switches to 6th avenue heartache by The Wallflowers.  It dawns on me... I am sitting on 6 1/2 avenue and my heart aches right now.

I know I know... emo.

But you see my heart doesn't ache because someone broke it (that was last month.)  My heart breaks because sin overtook my pastor. My pastor of over 10 yrs, chose sin over Jesus and then he had to step down because the sin separated him from God.

They took him away in all mediums: media and otherwise.  It almost feels like he never existed.  But he did exist! I can hear him in my head. I can see him when I pray for him. I know that he will never return as the senior pastor but i know he can use this experience to minister to folks.

But that's not on the horizon yet. He has to be restored,  his family has to be restored.  His relationships have to be restored.

I think of the song 'amazed' by Lonestar.  Its not about God but in this moment,  it is to me.  GOD IS ALREADY THERE! He is in the situation,  He is with my pastor, the family and like my pastor used to say 'look up to Jesus not any man.'

Love God and the rest will follow!