I finally took a trip that I had been dreaming about for many years! My family and I went to the west coast. A family friend was getting married and so we planned a trip around that. This trip came together on moment by moment basis. While I thought this would bring my family closer, it might not have done that. In fact it might have pushed us all into our corners a little bit more. Sad! I know! but there must be a pain before the gain right? Something has happened in my family, that i thought we were immune to. We became dysfunctional. I never thought that would happen to us!!! Sadly, in the ignorance of thinking that we would always stay the same happy go lucky family, I lost my brother.

I lost my relationship, my friendship with my best friend! We have turned into acquaintances who speak only if we have to do so. In his journey to finding himself, i lost him. How ironic! He has found this group of people that he "does life with," whatever that means. His family is playing second string right now because in the last 4-5 years that transition occurred and none of us caught it. I will always love my brother, of course, but i dont know him anymore. These people take up his whole life and something feels wrong about it.

I have a distinct feeling that something else is going on in his life. I have no idea what it is, but I saw this online and it reminded me that as long as I pray to my God, i have HOPE!




So thats that my friends, I resolve to fight for my brother, no matter what it takes! no matter how much anger i feel, i hope to push it aside and pray for him. i ask that you pray for me in this fight. every time i feel like i am losing, i retreat and i know i cant retreat anymore. the enemy has beaten me down many times. i fallen prey to many traps where he has convinced me that i can not do any better than this. BUT I KNOW THE TRUTH AND I KNOW THAT I AM A CONQUEROR IN CHRIST'S LOVE!

i ask that you please pray for a cleansing of mind, body, thoughts for me so that i can focus on fighting for my brother. i need him to see that family is what sticks. i want him to see that family is who you "do life with." most of all i want him to see that doing good works will not make him a Christian but that recognizing sins and fighting with faith and submitting to God is how you show your Christianity. I love my brother and I want him back. I hope that you will join me in praying for him and my whole family as we go through this trial.

Love God and the rest will follow!