so its the last day of the year... what a year this has been... coming into this year i was in a BAD place...leaving this year i am in an apathetic way... in the middle there were MANY ups and downs BUTTTTT i am ending it up with a "who cares anyway?" SIGH... i started a "new" job, i traveled a hella lot more than i expected. i closed a chapter in my book with a week of tears. i have actually worked on a few personal projects intentionally in the last few months. i finished more books this year than ever before becasue of all the traveling. i have laughed whole heartedly, i have cried whole heartedly. the pain of losing certain people in my life is still fresh and i wonder if i will ever be able to think of them without tearing up. a friend of mine gave birth to her second child, another friend is walking down the aisle in the next few days. all these milestones, joyous i am able to celebrate with them. praising God i am able to walk and talk, things i have taken for granted. so its the last day of the year... what a year this has been...going into this coming year i am apathetic...leaving this year i hope i feel something...

love God and the rest will follow